monsters they eat, your kind of meat.

siiiiiiiiiii. i misssed my union meeting for i woke up at noon and only because the craigslist guy kept calling and he was downstairs and had money to give me. .OHHHHHHHHH ive been mean. reallllly mean mean . but not even a fraction of how mean i can be. considering the locked up beaster that lives in my cage. with THE RAGE. oh i do try to sedate. but i should feel bad. cuz you know people are so fucking sensitive. i have to keep reminding myself. i am toooo. but i can only supress so long. and BY SUPRESSING, I AM BEING CONSIDERATE. thats how i give back. this is why when i havent slept enough, the surpressing isnt very effective. and THE RAGE. comes for dinner. btw im cancelling jams with drew and ohhhhhhhh i digressss, so ive come to terms with ourselves. and i think IT IS BECAUSE OF MY ENORMOUS responsiBILLYty (billly wrote me a romantic love letterrrr hence why he sailed in here), is why i snap and im so ubersensitive and touchy and go SNAP SNAP SNAP with the WRATHHH. but it comes with being the CREATIVE DIRECTOR of the whole uneeverse and BEYOND. so i am allowed . ALSO, i fucking hate uberpositive people. its just not normal. ITS NOT HEALTHY EITHER.. ill take myself expensive dining tonight with someone i like. thats gonna be fabulous so i wont be such a frazzled FROOO..HIDE THE BEAST. DRESSS IT UP AND SMEAR LIPSTICK ON ITS TEEETH.