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Such a sad and beautiful funeral. I'm exhausted from crying but I'm glad I was there with peter the whole way to send him off to the heavens. Last night jesse and i went to see him at the viewing. and he was smirking at us all. HE WOULD. everyone was pretty wrecked. I felt nauseous the whole day. Im glad jesse was there cuz he's way more grounded and relaxed me a little bit. Peters family is so lovely and everyone was so great. I needed to hear the things I heard spoken today. Im far from reaching acceptence or closure. but theres progress. i miss knowing you're out there doing what you do..even tho i didnt see you much this year.. and we were RIPE for a catching up sesh.. and then . you just left. .I swear i heard this through the clouds.