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the sun is almost back out and ive been up thinking while drinking and crossssing off things. i went to the space briefly and hugged jordy and ryan , dropped off things that belong to other people that were never really my things or my people to begin with. and wassss very sedated and dazed all work day . 3 hours late. give or take. and the OTHER other JOBS are all done now.so might one go to bed. one might. im underwhelmed. getting things done, in an organized fashion is really not that satisfying. and any type of revenge is kind of pointless. you cant ever undo the original evil. or hurt. you inflict more but your karma account gets heavyyy. kind of works against you. the whole wheeeeeeeeel and deal. but not me,. ive forgiven everyone . i just want to bask in the sun .and revel in glittery waters . and KNOW THIS. they have found alien mermaids in the japan waters. !.........my alternate universe me is actually trapped in a well AND is TWITCHING. says to me , from the could have been reality, be happy yr not in this version . i can FUCKING HEAR it. shes screaming. . so in a way i have saved her . from one version of hell.

there had to be a reason.