the first time. since i died.

two bottles of wine and somewehre from teh corner of my eye , the ceiling or the mirror above. i witnessed kittenz full revival. full on. the man drove me to work in his pajamas and fictional fur coat. i was exhausted to the moooon and dancing with everyone we danced and sang and everyone kissed and i was hiding half alive in the darkest room i could find. and i got PREzzents. now we make pasta. we make love we make cozy. untill we get to do it again . this time its exactly what i need. NO COMPROMISE NEEDED. going to LA soon. this because the man wants to take me. we will listen to our favourite tunessss and i will stay almost forever in la la because i can. and i am done nursing my little death.

its the last time i swear.

MINE WINTER SOLSTICING WAS MAGIC PURRR. i cant confesssssssssss EVERYTHING. but theres trees with public diary pages. and im alll over that . today sucks. I love being bummed out and bitter. im tooo greedy and karma is instant. SO I SUFFER A LITTLE . you better bet on the winner.

SILVER BUTTON.

cudddled with beetlejuice. in a cat coccoon. and we listened to swedish doom metal. OH WHAT DELICIOUS DAY.

when yr strange.

dont make me choose. KATHY .discomforted me with her dream analysis. i am disturbed.
i have to fish for buttons. because buttons keep things together. december is running away. and i have been mostly running away from you all. DONT MAKE ME CHOOSE. i will clone myself times a thousand. or send holographs to entertain you. i need an isolation tank.

ill fill your head with led.

this strange anxiety today is foggging up my brains. but 5 minutes of phone talks with MMMMMMMM. and it all goes out for a walk. thats where im going later. im walking fluffy dog to pee on trees. this is a new hobby. but I WANT TO VOMIT ..I was forced to watch sick films which gave me traumas and suffocation phobias. i feel disturbed. subliminally SCREAMING. next week will jam with GL+ jam with boris + shop with matt + skate with jiorji + date with kevin + play show in the scary mississauga + work alot.. + pick up FANCY NEW GEAR. no time to fear . HAVE FEAR OF DYING IN ICE COLD WATER. just bubbles and fish. and ice. and lungs full of water. veins constricted. unable to let the blood thru. i cant even type as i think this. nanoparticles invading the kidneys. KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

tamo gdje moje srce stanuje.

i have the massive MISSSING of THE ISLAND. and my scooter and all my boyfriends. JUNE JUNE JUNE HURRRY UP YOU GOOOON. i went to visit alot of dead people last night. well at least now i know where grandma lives. Although she complained about THEM painting her house white. it looked a lot better red.

DOOM DANCES.

1 bottle tooo much . half AND SLOWLy is okay. FOLLOW instructions. AT SOME POINT IM just not able to make smart decisions. this is the problem with these vices. hyperlevels off the richter. and then i cant be held responsible. i have such a long LOVEplusLUST LIST. and my hate list is shrinkingggg . which means im either getting enough sleeep or . . the gooood IS WINNING. model marko always phones me for mandatory pre show talks. we have such insightful marathons and i cant help but feel responsible for my pets.. I decorated my x-mas tree till about 4 am. post funz and glitters. napped two hours and came to work.. my new patient is a famous actor (i dont want to brag. but. yeah) and he is the most FUN ever. we are pretend married. even though he has a wife and a mistress who both come to visit. but they dont have to know about us. oh last night was whack the neezle night . I got punched + pinched CONSTANTLY and "by accident" and i had to get violent on a few occasions. not sure if i can justify it tho. I am possessive and jealous when it comes to my band. dont fuck with me YOU HIPPYFUCK.