certain feelings should never be discussed keep them to yourself

hungover but bright n early to church i went. bottled holy water is what i needed. i prayed and let the saints cure me. tho taking mother to church is like taking a chooowahwahhh to a symphony. wooman does not know how to behave. she cannot concentrate. lack of respect for holyness. THE AUCTION had me not get the icon i wanted. got UPSET. //that night. I sang my songs and saw the people. .say my overindulgence in the winejuice has almost CURED ME OF anemia. or so i lie to myself.but it has thickened up my bloood . i am so cute and plump .. today i scribble and broood because im happyyyyyy . dysfuncional blissful. OHHHHH you are bad for me. THE WORST. but FUCK IF I CAN HELP IT. laaa la la la laaaaaaaa
thus i am. Pumukl. oh G you encourage such obsessions.

whered you get that SWAG HOTSTUFF.

full MOON, you are a shit moon, I HAD to literally perform mental exorcisms upon waking. IM STILL dark mooned by it. DONT EVER COME TO ME WITH DREAMS LIKE THAT EVER AGAIN . erase them. and him. FOREVER. however. my new friend GOO and her entourage are a sight to be sighted! .

monsters they eat, your kind of meat.

siiiiiiiiiii. i misssed my union meeting for i woke up at noon and only because the craigslist guy kept calling and he was downstairs and had money to give me. .OHHHHHHHHH ive been mean. reallllly mean mean . but not even a fraction of how mean i can be. considering the locked up beaster that lives in my cage. with THE RAGE. oh i do try to sedate. but i should feel bad. cuz you know people are so fucking sensitive. i have to keep reminding myself. i am toooo. but i can only supress so long. and BY SUPRESSING, I AM BEING CONSIDERATE. thats how i give back. this is why when i havent slept enough, the surpressing isnt very effective. and THE RAGE. comes for dinner. btw im cancelling jams with drew and ohhhhhhhh i digressss, so ive come to terms with ourselves. and i think IT IS BECAUSE OF MY ENORMOUS responsiBILLYty (billly wrote me a romantic love letterrrr hence why he sailed in here), is why i snap and im so ubersensitive and touchy and go SNAP SNAP SNAP with the WRATHHH. but it comes with being the CREATIVE DIRECTOR of the whole uneeverse and BEYOND. so i am allowed . ALSO, i fucking hate uberpositive people. its just not normal. ITS NOT HEALTHY EITHER.. ill take myself expensive dining tonight with someone i like. thats gonna be fabulous so i wont be such a frazzled FROOO..HIDE THE BEAST. DRESSS IT UP AND SMEAR LIPSTICK ON ITS TEEETH.

they may hate me, but they still paint me.

serbian new year was wild. I danced my hips off. it was a mini gucha for shuaaa. I fist shook with a bunch of peeps on going to gucha in july. I MUST I MUST I MUST.Niko was my main date, but i tripple kissed all his friends and girls and everyone it was a hoooot. SO MANY gorgeous women . and women love me we know this. I got kicked off from the VIP section where i poured myself a nice whateverthefuck it was,was yummy mix drink. ALSO my vox is back. full on. now i sing and talk like the doll that never stops. I LIKE MY HAIR DARKER. its soooooooooo romy schneider circa 1969......

i was just another little TOOL in his factory.

whenever a man tortures me, 50 good ones come to save me. thankk youuuu .and sorry darling, but nothing good reminds me of you. I dont want what you can give me.

skippppp a beat

i left the flu at home for a night to play show show. but it waited for me like an italian lover in the bed when i got back and we cont. where we left off. in sick land. on another note. my favourite thing is driving in the car with my G and shootin the shit. and missing all the exits, and being super late ..lalalallala. must count my pennies and book a flight.

i work in mathematician fashion.

shards of glass under my skin STUCK . this isnt the first set of injuries ive aquired and inflicted. thsi year we go for IMPACT. FOR PHYSICAL PAIN. nothing more nothing less. but IT WORKS JUST THE SAME. if not better. was supposed to do a secret thing witha secret person today. but will not. because in conjunction with all my ails, i also have the brand new lab engeneered floo. in person and first hand.. this is like dead birds falling from the sky plus /but of course we have the BLACKEST SKIES I have EVER ever SEEEN. but i am of balkan blood. HARDCORE. my woes, my OTHER WOES are barking at my door. so i spewed venom and shit talked alot, alot more than im proud to admit. no no no no no. its just that im an exceptional individual with exceptional demands. or psychotique. which ever. cant reason with reason. //i need a highly neurotic husband. clearly.

dancing into twothousandheaven

the story is long. we'd be up all night long. /////// i saved the day. i think. but i started the war .