dear god who art in heaven

please let the world end tomorrow. i cant take it anymore. make it stop.

you could have been my king.

quite the emotional adjustments this week. you in the lowest drawer..fornow or forever. not sure, and the old out of the midde drawer, back to regular . although intense and delicious and WRONG as always. new band with alitzi is so delish. except all the drummers i auditioned sucked, so i willll sit on the throne , all four four fours. after middle drawer and i hung out 2 nights ago some asstool followed me home and was wailing topless in tight pants in front my door. making animal sounds , growling and laughing maniacally tryin tokick my doorr in at 4 am . the police doesnt even care that he now knows where i live and all. OOOHHKAY must make me a PEPPER SPRAY . i made up with almost everyone. on the full moon of the scorpio. i must be a secret scorpio but in reverse. amazing.

notes to self.

1. avoid people who make you twitch neurotically. including papa, X's, certain hysteria prone individuals. 2. dont try to quit anything cold turkey. its alot harder. pace pace pace yourself. 3. burning bridges is ok if you know how to swim. 4. you are always right no matter what. IT HAS BEEN PROVEN over and over. 5. look back if you have to, but wear goggles and protective clothing. 6. SLEEP TILL NOON AND FUCK EM ALL.