a lethargic child is a servant to the beast

OH boy, time to see a doctor. something strange in neeland . it could be the devil, it could be batman. i dont know I DONT KNOW. this is vomitttt material . i also have been cheating on this blog. yes i have another. cuz my new band is a shiny thrill . the weird thing is that i and suzey have the most parallel lives ever. two potential daddys. no crotch santa for a long time. what is up. ive been punching my tummy all day. and no santa still. the good news is that i have watermelon to console me right now, and that im going to see mister bat on thursday. also gluxx record is done, needs a good mix shake . and adele met the blackhearts today which is so weird on so many levels.. as she was joan jett last halloween with me as bumble nee, and grant at the rehearsal factory refers to us as the runaways. so thus its fucking cool . i made peace with more enemies and this gives me a sense of peace. ODDDLY.

its like he was designed with me in mind.

blahhhhh. cravings. lazy but have to do some mid summer cleaning , nd im talking soul cleaning. bad people have to go. so good ones can come in. HOW amazing to run into my birthday twin dave yesterday. he knows what its like for a one of our kind. hes a lot like a nee. realy its eeery. his show was a hoot . i must sit down in a think tank and decide what to do with all the extra baggage type of people. its like they are piling up, and i cant remember what purpose exactly they serve in my this here life . goodbye amy. my black woman doppelganger. .i too choose the moment and i despise the consequences... i deny their existance. actually i get straight up mad when they look me in the eye and want to be acknowledged . i dream of flying in boats and running people over as i land on water. not on purpose.. but swimmers stupid swimmers, and myw ater steering seems to be not as good as my cloud steering. and then cats jump at me. and i let them in . and pet them.. and then all of a sudden theres too many cats in my boat and they all brood due to major attention lack. it is trying to tell me something . i choose the one with the best tail. cant wait now i really cant. x-ing off the days with elvis.

beach and bamboooo. and not one of you..

ottawah cancelled. due to dramatique circumstances. and booooolsheeet. the ex ex x dog is ruining my boy detox. enticing invitations from chicago. and OH. my horror, i have to wait 6 weeks. UNTILl. magic island time. a mystical island this time. no cars no nightclubs, no paved roads. just mishka in a castle. and a population of a less than 100 locals. this is going to be JUUUUUUICY. im currently in vacation mode. as im vacationing in aunty vesnas house. as in house sitting. mother is also in europe. im perplexed as to what on earth is going on. well either way. im instinct fueled against everyone. except my dead does jam sessions. they keep me kicking. when the big cash comes in im getting my private jet and sparkle drum kit. a pet cougar and many husbands

i wasnt counting on your shallow

people fear me. i dont know why. people stare at me . i thiink i know why. people talk at me. i dont listen.. i dont care . if i did talk back id tell you that you ARE WRONG. and we are nothing alike. montreal was fun. some good. some bad. drama kings trying to outshine me at what i do best. a pooor attempt at least.